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HOLS OF 2009

2009-03-10T07:56:00.000-07:00

hey its finally here... my 2009 HOLS!! my long awaited hols ..wow ...

It started off great with a class chalet ,many of my great friends where there. Darren,Kay, Sherwin,Amanda,Clare,Ming xuan,Xin yi ,Greg and last but not least Edward. too bad Edwin and the others couldnt make it ... well we had fun playing the Ps2 ,MJ and joking around.(Oh yea , we also taught Ming Xuan to cycle,cool huh ? :D) Though i must say the place was small which made it difficult to find place to sleep.. everyone was so tired on the last night that they all squeezed into 1 room .. hahahah.. well i didnt really sleep :P .
in fact , Greg ,Edward ,Darren and myself went for a morning cycling ride :D it was refreshing and great :) well i really had a great time with you guys , hope we can do this again sometime soon :)

well after the chalet,i had to go for an operation .. well it so happens my 4 wisdom tooth was in the way of my tooth structure such that my braces couldnt work its magic.. so i had to removie .. 2 on the 6th of march and 2 more on the 20th of march..

well the process was pretty SCARY!!.. first on the 6th , they would cut my gums( because the teeth is still in the gums and havent grown out yet.. ) and then drill my teeth off .. if the teeth couldnt be extracted , they would cut the teeth in half . well it was scary to hear the drill in my ear.. my body was weak and scared.. i was sweating like crazy .. (lucky they covered my eyes with a cloth like thing ... ) the only thing i could do was pray to god and ask him to protect me . (Of course all this is done under local anaesthesia) after the removal was completed , they stiched up my gums and let it heal, they would remove the stiches 1 week after the operation. Amazingly , all this was done under 15 mins .. though i had to stay there for 2 more hours to rest and stop the bleeding .

SIGHS.. anyway i hope the stiches wont burst or break ..or else there would be trouble.. i hope this operation would be fruitful :/ well waiting to remove those darn stiches on this coming friday.. .

finally .. dear i missed you too hahahah :) rest well after your camp yea ?! :P

well i best be off .. got to take some painkillers :( take care my friends and dear readers, god bless!!!

Happy v day

2009-02-14T00:40:00.000-08:00

Happy v day ppl :)

HEY EVERYONE HAPPY CNY 2009

2009-01-26T00:27:00.000-08:00

Hey everyone happy CNY... ..but i am feeling down lately..

sighs.. i have been insercure and sad lately...

you see... i really L*VE my special someone but lately...but i feel upsat.. i just dont feel that she likes me as much or as close as i do for her.. sometimes i feel that she doesnt think of me as much as i think of her.. she seems to be getting more angry with me lately then she usually does she even told me that shes getting tired of me somethings.. i really feel sad inside sometimes when i hear such things.. we have been arguing more often lately over the small stuff.. the thing is .. i really feel for her ..but yea... its like she doesnt appreciate me anymore...i pray to god everyday ..asking him to give me the strength to hold on to her heart...

she dont seem to trust me as much lately....she doesnt seem to forgive me and she's really skeptic about me .. sighs.. i know i am not the best for her..but please if she is reading this .. i just want you to promise that you will stay... i know i've been selfish and foolish.. but look through that and i hope she will see someone better...

she's the strength i have .. she made a bigger impact in my life then any other .. today her words felt like a knife ..when she got angry with me just because i was trying to help her solve her problem...i am really trying my best..

i just wish to go back to days where we dont argue or fight . (My love .. i know we have something special .. please dont throw it away) ..i hope you will just be happy with being able to be together with me....sighs.. god bless all ..sorry if you had to read this emo post :/

END OF 2008!

2008-12-31T23:28:00.001-08:00

HELLO!! hey guys ..its the end of 2008 .. i miss saint pats and MI (PAE session).. miss my friends ..damn .. 1 year gone so fast...finally 18 wow....

well MERRY BELATED X 'MAS! hahaha ..here is one x' mas pic that i took ..(due to being so bored :/).

me in a christmas hat ..

sighs.. i didnt do much this x'mas so no pics...

hmm so much has happened in 2008.. i went through a spectrum of emotions and learnt a lot from it.

i met great friends and a special person :)

i miss playing basket ball this whole year.. didnt have the time .. miss the whole bayshore crew!

well , poly is different .. i have learn to treasure my friends and everyone that i know ;)

In poly there are so many new people ,some are nice , some not so.. but i enjoy the experience of a 1hr plus ride to school(yeah right!).. not used to it yet..consistantly late for school :*(

well at least i manage to meet up with my god bro , we went on a cruise...

eugene, myself and my dad ! :D

messages to people!

To :Bao guang, hang in there, change is constant ! study hard man and cheer up , people in poly wont eat you!

To : Eugene Ho, stop stalking girls man!!! there are many girls in poly relax!! hahaha

To: Old friends, we all must meet up soon ,some way or another .. dont forget me!!!

well guys thx for the taggs!! :D do tag more .. it motivates me to blog ..even when i am busy :Phahaha

Achievements this year

-got into a good poly

-Ran for IVP

-learnt vauleable life lessons ;)

-3.1 GPA?

Goals for 2009

-GPA 3.8

-Break PB for track

-Make parents proud

-Record a song with jeff!

-Become a better person !

well 2009 will be a busy year.. with the economy falling and all.. i hope that no matter what happens, we all will remain as friends, forever!!!!. This goes out to everyone who i know :) well HNY!! lets look forward for a better future and remember that there are reasons for things to happen! dont let it bring you down!:) see you all soon!! (if i have the time to blog....) take care!! :D

HALLOWEEN

2008-11-07T09:08:00.001-08:00

Hey its been a long time since i blogged... been too busy with school and stuff...

hmmm the halloween party we had ,organized by David , was great :)

i met a great new nice friend ..her name is Ethel .. = D

hahah ..well David had us (myself and jeff ) perform.. i wouldnt say we sucked ..but i wouldnt say we did good either .. it was so-so :P

oh well here is the pic.. oh yea .. i wasnt dressed in a costume.

we stayed till 4 am hahah ... but i totally forgot about the OSIM help out on the next day....so i didnt go. . .felt so bad XD

moving on....

hmmm its week 5 of poly ..and its really busy with tutorials and projects piling up .. oh well ...

been confused about stuff lately... stuff i dont ever wish to share..... emotions are a stir... sleepless nights.. and the horrible emptyness feeling that can't be filled.... sighs.. oh well at least i can keep myself occupied by doing my work ... well god bless all .. till next time ~

BLADING!!

2008-10-05T08:50:00.000-07:00

hmm this holiday has been an interesting and time consuming experience :D

1. i learned how to skate... sort of :P

2. i wrote and completed a song..

3. i did lots of training :D

hmm didnt have time for basket ball or what so ever.

oh i went on a class outing too..but the pics are not with me ...YET... will post it up when recieved :D

trackers rock!! i got into 1.5 KM for the IVP coming up ...scared??? hmm a little .. :P

hmm oh yea my younger bro has a blog too :D go check the links :D
today is my dads birthday too ..he is finally 51 :D yay him lol..

well got to prepare for tomorrow's training...tired man .. well i gtg take care loyal readers and dear friends ..i miss you all !! god bless!!

HOLIDAYS

2008-09-12T05:54:00.000-07:00

YES i finally found the time to blog :D

today i went out with my bestie .. had a mud pie at coffee bean and bought my gguitar strings :)

everyone sure seems busy working and stuff..but no one wants to work with me:( so i rather just relax lol :D

been busy with ..: track training
thinking of girls =x (kidding)
DOTA
basket ball
and stuff

i miss all my friends...guys do tell me or ask me out when you are free@@!!!!!!!!!!!

well i gtg take care guys and er.. god bless! :D

FINALLY THE TIME TO BLOG!

2008-08-25T21:06:00.000-07:00

hey guys ...finally i am over and done with my exams..though most have heard , i kinda of screwed up my exams...how? well i didnt complete at least 30 marks of questions ..lack of time..sighs...

oh well at least i should enjoy the hols and have a well deserved rest...

my plans for the hols? play basket ball ..train for track...hmm go out with friends...or girlfriends =x lol .kidding... .hmmm try to find a job...i need the money!!

speaking of money ... have you seen the new iphone?!?! i want it man ..but its so damn expensive...argh.... oh well ..i shall be contented and wait for the price to drop =x ..

oh yea these are pics of my twin bro's birthday , which was on the 7 of august :)

dinis , twin bro and me :D my hair is damn long ..argh..

the group :D from left to right , me , twin bro , dinis and jolene ! :D

scandal !!! lol ..no its just jolene and twin bro .. .lol ..

finally THE BROS.. lol ..well thx for reading my blog ..though its rusty and dead.. .wahahah GOD BLESS AND ENJOY THE HOLS!!

busy life

2008-07-12T10:01:00.000-07:00

WOW LIFE IS DAMN BUSY LATELY

because of stephie asking me to post.. i shall..been having a lot of problems lately ..only steph knows about it...lol ...anyway...busy ......with ITB , tutorials, and CATS ..LOL ... so how are you guys ?

i got emo pics of my ..but too lazy to upload it to my com now .. :P ..welll been going gym and track lately..my bodyaches a lot now ...ouch ..lol ..

sorry David and company for being able to join you guys at sentosa today :/ .. sighs.. hope you guys had a great time .. :P

well take care and god bless..i will try to blog soon ~

BUSY LIKE HELL MAN! my rant!!

2008-07-06T08:03:00.001-07:00

BUSY AS ALWAYS MAN!!

Been so busy with BA envoys that i havent had anytime for track nor basket ball:( ...
sighs....

well ..no new pics yet..actually there is ..but i cant seem to fine the time to post it ..lol

AND NO I AM NOT A F***ING FLIRT !!!

its just too boring in school..... tests here and there..project work...sighs..i am still blogging when

i got a BSTA paper tml !!!oh shit.. that reminds me .. i didnt even study yet..aiya. .sure wont do well..:( ... .

well thx for the post guys :) lol ...i cant wait for the PED (poly experience day !! ) event :P it will be so cool :D ..well off to BSTA...

and oh yea .. before i go.. here are my results .. i didnt study for it ..so cant blame me for doing so badly =x

BSTA=76%
MIEC=78%
BCOMM=58%
INFA=68%
ITB=70%

i bet all those of you who did well studied your ass off~!!!!!~ lol ..well done to you guys then :D ..sighs.. time to start the old noodle ...:(

take care all and god bless...more post to come .... bestie , i miss you too!!! lol...~

bestie :)

2008-06-21T08:01:00.000-07:00

OKOK .. i post too much this week..but this post is Dedicated to my bestie stephie ....want to know why ??

becaused she asked me too :D lol ..dont be jealous others ..whoever wants me to post about them can request :D LOL

steph is irritating yet grows on others... LOL ..she has a smile that kills the flowers...KIDDING!! .. OK I AM OFF NOW :P how i wont be too busy once school starts..god bless all !! bestie maggie , stephie, eugene , alvin , david , etc .. the list goes on :) TAKE CARE!

wow finally a post

2008-06-20T21:11:00.000-07:00

WOW , 3 POST IN A WEEK!!

LOL ..the title speaks for it's self......anyway..i just pulled out my teeth yesteday...so yea... ouch .. hurts a bit now.. :(. ..

anyway i promised some pics of the BA envoys camp right? ? here is the link for it :D

http://gs252.photobucket.com/groups/hh8/2YMEQLCMQD/

..lol :D

i miss sec school man..stuck with the pass..:( Eugene Ho ...i got no one to bother now bro!! lol...

well here are a few of my favourite pics from the camp xp

ME, JOLENE ...AND NEW FOUND TWIN BRO!!

WOW I SMILED HERE!! lol....

last but not least...the best group ... ever!!! G-UNIT! LOL..:)

ANYWAY GUYS I NEED HELP WITH MY BLOG. . I WANT TO CHANGE SKIN ..BUT I DONT KNOW HOW ...AND THE PIC AT THE ENTRANCE OF MY FREAKING BLOG IS OLD!! ... I WANT TO UPDATE IT ..I DONT KNOW HOW .... i suck at the source codes ....can someone please help me??!?!?!?!?!??! tag if you can help :D ...well i must be off take care all!! :)

BEFORE NP

2008-06-19T06:42:00.001-07:00

THIS IS WHAT I DID IN BCOMM CLASS ! LOL

This post was a bit "backwards" ...it should be after posted before WELCOME BACK JOSHUA.... lol.. but yea ...here are pics taken by si hui , my good friend , in bcomm class!

PLEASE REMEMBER I ONLY DID THIS BECAUSE I WAS BORED!!! NEARLY TO DEATH ..!!

pics are in the links provided here

pic1:http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_XI3Z65BInD4/SElbpcyofEI/AAAAAAAABIA/iGqhP_AE-sg/s1600-h/Picture+0071.jpg

pic2 :http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_XI3Z65BInD4/SElbWy0AgyI/AAAAAAAABHo/RGtdyfj-zOw/s1600-h/Picture+0070.jpg

pic3:http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_XI3Z65BInD4/SElbXCtEgCI/AAAAAAAABHw/fU1eEs1j5sc/s1600-h/Picture+0067.jpg

pic4:http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_XI3Z65BInD4/SElbDJmqATI/AAAAAAAABHY/XWun-WmgTDM/s1600-h/Picture+0068.jpg

those were from bcomm on 6 jun...

now for those on bcomm on 22 may

pic1:http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_XI3Z65BInD4/SDYvVg3juoI/AAAAAAAABFM/66MWhoZLfjs/s1600-h/Picture+0054-1.jpg

that was me sleeping lol!!

pic2:http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_XI3Z65BInD4/SDYvLg3junI/AAAAAAAABFE/INnnnHqT6GY/s1600-h/Picture+0051-1.jpg

pic3:http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_XI3Z65BInD4/SDYu_g3jumI/AAAAAAAABE8/1wtfLEzkwns/s1600-h/Picture+0056-1.jpg

pic 4:http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_XI3Z65BInD4/SDYucw3jujI/AAAAAAAABEk/klo_YwZg-hU/s1600-h/Picture+0059-1.jpg

LOL yup that was when i was bored during bcomm

NOW FOR 2 PICS FROM AFTER TRACK AND FIELD ............

acting cute...lol ..

and ...

me retardedly smiling..lol well thats all take care people :)

NP!!

2008-06-19T06:21:00.000-07:00

WELCOME BACK JOSHUA!!

lol...finally found sometime to blog :D .... NP is like super far man ..everyday i would sleep during the first 1 or 2 hrs of class .. .LOL ....made a bunch of new friends ...friends that are great :)

i got into the BA ENVOYS , BA jamming and NP track and field :)

so busy with CCA's projects and craps .. lol i screwed up common test...not expecting to do too well there....

hmmm in fact i just got back from BA ENVOYS camp ... super tired.. lol it was super fun...other that the fact that we found disposable underwear ...and used it as props for a skit .. LOL.. ..

the camp pics are in my laptop .. so i cant really post it up now :) but will do so as soon as possible :D

miss my best friends! damn .. .i miss sec school .. miss being bothered by teachers and classmates..lol .. well i stopped emoing .. .but started being obsessed with ALESANA and BLESSTHEFALL ..some screamo bands .. which super rocks man!! lol .. all friends who read this post must tagg yea? lol..

just so all my friends know .. i wanted to type out a list of all the new friends i made in NP. ..but i am afraid that list is too long to type out .. without accidentally skipping someones name ..lol ..so yea i want to say : " thx for the friendships!! " lol .. accountancy is a super boring course...ITB SUCKS! lol but yea.. .well i gtg ..take care and god bless.. .will be updating links ..and posting when free.. sorry for not blogging for so long .. off i go ..:) !!!

painful

2008-04-11T11:16:00.000-07:00

THE DOWNSIDE OF LIFE....

I thought this year would stuff off right...with new friends ...a great gf...good school and stuff....

but ..on 27 march .. one day before our 2nd month...2 days before her bday ...she dumped me ..just because she thinks it wont work..i still love you cindy.. .. i wasnt sad that you was an absentee gf...but sad ..because ..you never think of me ..or miss me..or whatsoever..and it feels likes its one sided though we are together..

now that i seen your blog recently with the pics of collin and yourself..i feel even more upset..cos ..you never posted pics of us at all....i just wish you treated me dearer...the gift i got you ...was what i saved up for so hard..you never thought about how i would feel .....

and worse i cant move on..its too difficult for me to move on so fast..like how you moved on so fast..whiched makes me even more sad... inside ..you have no idea.....

NP is a great school ..great friends ..great people..but ..cindy is always in my mind..i cant seem to mix around the way i did in MI ..i didnt even ask people for phone numbers..(other than my group ) ....

cindy ...my lifes a wreck without you ...
i miss walking to school in the morning with you ...

i miss watching sunsets with you ...
i miss just seeing your smile or recieving your hugs ...

my heart calls out for one name ..and that name is cindy...
i cant eat properly...lost 2 kg.... cant do anything right...

you wont even treat me like a friend now ...i feel so empty inside.....

i cry myself to sleep every night..otherwise i cant sleep....

i started slight drinking habits...the only way to ease the pain is to drink before i drown...

i tear everytime i think of you ..and me ..and how we used to be....

cindy ..wont you come back with me ?? sighs...god bless you ..whereever you are...

VALENTINES DAY 08

2008-03-13T02:44:00.000-07:00

VALENTINES DAY '08

HMM its was awesome ..being with my love (cindy aka cinch) was the best thing :) we met early at about 6 30 and exchanged gifts ...i gave her a tissue rose...and some heart shaped straws...she bought me a belt which actually fit :D lol...well that wasnt all...during recess..i got a sunflower i ordered...and went up to her..on my knees ...:P ...well.. i hope she loves it ...:)

i also did something for her..... check this pic out :

IT SAYS...I HEART CINDY - josh

HOPE SHE APPRECIATES IT :) anyway..i will blog a bit more next time ..i got to go :) well loyal readers ..take care and god bless....oh how i miss cindy :P

I LOVE YOU CINDY!!! :)

MI !

2008-02-14T06:58:00.000-08:00

THE NEW BEGINING :p

HI all loyal readers...sorry i havent updated my blog..been too busy :P ...

let me fill you in on what happened since my last post...

i am in MI now for the PAE....i got a miserable 13 for my l1r4 (no CCA) ...i dont have r5 because of my chinese....

hmm... i plan on going to ngee ann poly:accountancy...

okok..now for the personal stuff XD

i met a great girl....and great and unforgetable friends ,

the great girl ( presently known as my gf :D ) is CINDY!!

i met great friends as well... like jerome , fiona , julia tan , julia tay , edwin , syam,farhana,YC , XZ,zara , carmen ,eng hui , su ,Jolene and many more and still to come XD...if i forgotten to write your name , i apologise ....XD

so yea....anyway..the next post will come..its called valentines day :D more pics and stuff to come ...:D

grad night

2007-11-20T23:12:00.001-08:00

GRAD NIGHT KICK AFTER O LEVELS !!!

YO ! finally o levels is over !! i can finally relax....well there is this thing called grad night ...but its just plain gay ..because ..i am in an all boys school .. lol :P but the night was wasted with good friends..and dumb games lols ...

george , dev , me ,eugnee , ansel and chun kee :P ..i look horride lol ..:P

anyway .. i realised i am more busy during the holidays as compared to school days....got work....outings.(NO GF YETS SIGHS .lol..).. and basket ball :P ...so . this leaves me with less time to blog..sighs...sorry dear spacemonkeys lol :P

well i better be off got work to do... take care people .. and till next time :P

nearing o's //

2007-10-04T05:35:00.000-07:00

THE BIG O's

the big o's ..wow ....two weeks man...to the begining o levels....hmmmm stressed ? ..well i am too relaxed..which indirectly makes me stress lol ...see i still have time to blog...tsk tsk..anyway....to all the ppl out there .. all the best for the o levels and a levels ...

and here is a pic of my and my guitar :P (i dont believe i have time to play guitar still! ) lol ...

here is one .more pic we were playing scrabble in class just today lol :P

lol!

( my first word for scrabble):p

well anyway ..good luck for the o levels :)bb and take care people!

award to come...

2007-09-15T07:51:00.000-07:00

PRELIMS AFTERMATHS

HMMM prelims just ended (what a relief )*phew* well ...gotten back my maths and science result ...aint that good ..but aint that bad...top for maths ..and physics..second for chem (in class) sighs....oh well..i think i got an A1 for my combine science...:P getting more results back on monday .....

BUT good news :D i got an award for meeting and excceeding my expected targets in four subjects :P lol...oh well....:P

well..i didnt really study this term..
was in genting and all..relaxing and having a blast :) well...i can do well ..., anyway take care ppl and god bless , see yea soon :)

lucky days

2007-08-30T21:14:00.000-07:00

LUCKY WEEK SO FAR...or more??

Well to prevent by blog from rotting .. i shall post..... its been half way through the prelims..i really been slacking..still have time to sleep :p anyway ...only my dnt paper is left with science paper 1 and practical ..............going to screw up prelims..but thats what i deserve i guess:P ...

well...its weird being single so long...i feel like i am missing someone ...but i dont know who...its weird..i even had dreams of my future girlfriend ( i dont know who it is ..just a Mysterious figure.) .......well really wish i knew who she is :P

anyway ...if you guys are wondering ....i would like my gf to be nice ..and love me for who i am lol...(obviously) she has to have a certain look....nice smile...and something we share in common... wish i could know someone that sweet..sighs..however ...this year i cant afford to have a gf...o levels is my gf ..together with my studies :D(for now ..dont worry ppl..i wont stay single i hope :P) ...(*note gf is girlfriend not grandfather) josh is a lame ass ..yes i know :P

well anyway moving ..recently this week the last week of august is the most luckiest week so far in my life...yesteday (29/8/07) i found a 512 mb thumb drive around saint patricks road outside school....seems to be belong to someone from the band..but who?...i just kept it anyway....

well today...(30/8/07) .. was taking bus 43 by myself on the way home at about 11 50 am... there was hardly anyone in the bus (4 ppl other than myself) i took a seat at the back of the bus where there was no one....suddenly ..i found a $100 note..not $10 but $100..it was folded up nicely and placed in between the seat backing and the seat....i could not believe my luck..i feel guilty though....but .. there was no one around..neither was there a wallet..so why just $100 ?? ..must be a gift from god ...hehehee...well i would return to the person if he really lost it..but oh well...what a stroke of good luck.....well i have to go relax...i've caught a cold and a sore throat..better health than weath though...well signing off...take care ppl god bless! :)

the day before national day...

2007-08-08T01:59:00.000-07:00

THE DAY BEFORE NATIONAL DAY!

Well its 8 of august the day before national day...spending my day slacking here and rotting lol....was surppose to have been out with shi kai and xin yi..but due to unforseen circumstances .....the outing was canceled...was quite disappointed though...well moving on...
the day in school was rather boring .... you know ..the guitar club members performance was so repeatitive....no offence...and i didnt even know they needed a conductor ...lol ...

anyway i got a confession to tell.....see...its weird when you start to like two girls ...and so happen you have no hope with either of them....most of you guys know the 2 girls ..but sighs...........its sad....its 2 times the sadness... well i will move on :P ...oh yea i just had a hair cut :p i look like a rooster if i were to wax it lol ! well yea.... i feel wasted....well i just hope i got people to go out with me on friday....sighs......well take care and god bless people...

hello:)

2007-07-25T03:06:00.000-07:00

WELCOME ME BACK :D

hello everyone :P i havent blog for sometime now...really busy :P i met a few new friends this year , shi kai , xin yi ,charmaine , jonna , serene tan,jun wei,jasmine and lastly germaine :P did i miss out anyone ?:P lol actually manny more but this people are great peopl :P ...well i seem to have changed into a positvie boy :P due to that adam khoo course ... thx to that ...anyway ..been really busy ..test and mock exams....prelims soon..and before you know it poof , o' levels! lol...been working hard lately..seeing bao guang work his ass off scares me man...but he is a nice guy :P i just wish i could motivate my classmates to study..its tough to study in school...really dont have that certain mood...damn.....anyway ...i placed new pics on my friendster...just go and search for my email address lonelyforever@hotmail.com i think i look so - so ..first time in my life i dont think i am ugly :P lol anyway yeah...

here is one of my many jokes :

two weasels were having a drink in the bar..
the first weasel started to insult the other weasel "i slept with your mother "
the bar fell silent waiting for a reply ....but none came..
the first weasel repeated it in a louder tone this time and said "I SLEPT WITH YOUR MOTHER "
finally .. the second weasel grapped the first weasel by the arm and said "ok dad i think you are drunk "

lol want more jokes ?:P add me on msn. .i got lots of shit lol ! god bless people study hard..i need help with DNT ahh?!

boredom pain..

2007-05-11T06:47:00.000-07:00

BOREDOM PAIN AFTER MID YEARS...

yes for some ppl ,the mid years are over..but ...now comes the prelims and soon after , the o levels......but for now i guess i would take a short break ..i deserve it i guess :P well ...the only thing worrying is our results..well all the best with that....hmm i would be bored during the holidays...studying , basket ball, guitar....then remedial classes ...theres the school class trip to bintan ...i dont think i want to go though....because..i would feel unwanted..but i may go..still considering..well i will put new pictures here soon..but my com got some damn problem so ..sorry for the long wait :P take care and god bless people !!! good luck for the exams!

sighs..

2007-04-22T17:02:00.000-07:00

LAZY LATELY..

I been so lazy lately...cant focus on my work..keep going to on my laptop and slack.....i cant even sleep cos my dad dont let me use the air con in the afternoon..and i got no fan....so i am like sweating while i sleep.. so irritating... well o levels are coming soon..... 27 /4/07 is mid year...well on friday./20/4/07 , we had sports carnival...then eugene and all went to george birthday...he is such a bastard as his god bro ,he didnt even invite me..when i invited him last year...he said there wasnt any space and all...then he invited santa maria of all ppl...fuck....i got no faithful friends (in school) i just realised that in am alone (as really alone with no friends nor family members ) 95 percent of the time..... i only meet my friends at the basket ball court...other then that..i am usually alone...i got no true friends to whom i can share my secrets and stuff with ..maybe a few..but they seem so busy that i dont want to bother them..in school i have no one to talk to about this stuff...eugene is of no help..sighs...god.....my dad has been giving me a hard time still ...everyday..like he has something against me or what...he keep making me feel unwanted at home..he says the most hurtful things and dont care....he wants me out of the house asap he dont want me home..everytime he sees my face he scolds me...i mean ..where can i go to relax...not even can i relax in my own house..not in school...hardly anywhere..i feel so depressed and stressed...and i keep it all in ...cos my parents dont give a damn to bother or to care...i just wished i died..the only way i think i can let out is ..through blogging..but i am so busy lately.i dont have time..well i gtg ....sighs...

my first canning

2007-04-18T00:36:00.000-07:00

MY FIRST CANNING BY MY PRINCIPAL

ouch...the day started of with me wining a medal for that basket ball competetion..got second place..everything went as per normal until my form teacher came and punish us for not donating to the school and handing forms...later he pump those who didnt bring the hand book AKA school diary , which was not compulsory....then we were just going to do normal push ups ..when suddenly the principal came out of no where ,and asked the form teacher why we are geting punish...
"is it for homework?" the principal asked

my teacher said no....but he just canned everyone in the push up position( almost the whole class except for like 5 classmates) but i was one of the victims..he just canned one by one in a line and was smiling...i got canned too of course.....we all felt liked we were all canned for nothing..one boy..cried because he felt like we got canned for nothing..we didnt come school to get canned ..but to study....well the irony of it was that i got congratulated by him...and later canned lol :P ...well those ppl who feel the same way just drop a tag :P take care and god bless ppl !

well this is the last year..

2007-04-11T03:53:00.001-07:00

THE BREAK I GUESS...

I wish i known you better...our situation is getting worse...
i just wanted her to know , i think about her everynight when i fall asleep ,you were in my dreams
just like in a movie , the one you want to see...with a happy ending...

well looks like we broke i guess...cos shes ignoring me...and i heard from mei she said we broke already..i dont know anything....i just want her to know that shes a great girl...its better if i let her go . she should find a better guy than myself..happy sixteen birthday ....i just wanted her to know i think about her...though we were different ..shes a nice girl..and i suck....well hope she finds the perfect guy for her...dear wan qi ..be happy ok? you are the greatest girl i know...sighs.. well my hearts just sad...to lose her......well i have to let go.....i just want to be a loner....i mean we are so different..sorry...if i hurt you..i want her to know its all me ..., my fault...i got nothing to say ..now but....i want her to take care of herself ..god bless her...well lets just say its over....and shes gone ....

sad truth

2007-03-29T07:32:00.001-07:00

Sad Discovery?

hmmm ..i went to the doctor today ...after getting an injection for my fever...and all the illnesses for the past 5 days(friday to tuesday included)
well today..i went to the doctor not because of these illnesses ..but because i discovered 2 lums in my neck area....so yups....doctor said it can be cancer...but it shouldnt be ...it could be an infection or a paracite(hope i spelt it correctly) doctor gave me some medcine and said the lums should grow smaller or better , disappear.......all these should happen in one week....but however...if it doesnt shrink..means its.....um...cancer? but usually the cancer lum cant move and dosent hurt...but one of the lum does hurt and can move a bit ..so that one definately infection..the other one which is bigger is hard and doesnt move nor hurt ...so i just hopes it grows small...argh..i am so paranoid..and i really want to go basket ball soon!:P anyway take care and god bless....hope its nothing though...still really worried inside...

THE PAIN

2007-03-26T23:32:00.000-07:00

THE PAIN FOR 5 DAYS

Its the 5 th day since i got this damned high fever .... had an injection on sunday though.
///.....buts thats not the reason why i am here....i am here cos i feel the pain both in spirit and heart...during this five days, i felt the pain of the past... i remembered sandy...you know my ex that left me for another guy .///that crap...remembered the time my dad really kicked me out of the house....(quite recently actually) when the girl i liked (yi lei) called me ugly on my bday last year and kissed david (my best friend)on the same day... and later i found out they were together....now yi lei trying to be nice by calling me pretty boy and all cos they recently broke....but i still feel the pain...the truth was..i never really felt love...not at home...not in school not elsewhere...sandy..was a person i felt loved me ..until i found out she left me for another guy....i mean.. i just hate all the pain i bottle up.... i am scared to live..as i am becoming everything i hate....i dont know how to love..i am self-fish...self centered ..i only thing god loves me ..but i am slowly losing that thought.....amber now ...is a great person..but i dont really know how to treat her well...cos i dont know what love is... i have never felt it..in my entire life..

you know why i think of these ppl? cos my dad represents my hate for the world now with no love....sandy showed me how i can never trust others ..not even my love ones ....

yi lei showed me that liking someone means letting someone hurt you..now tell me how do i feel love?? i feel only pain....i cry a lot inside..i dont let anyone know....ppl that call me lonely ..you know why i feel that way>??its cos i feel sperated from this world..i feel like i lost all hope of living in this place....................well ppl might called me emo or whatever...but do they know how they feel?? can they honestly come up to me in my shoes and say they feel nothing??!!! well..what can i say...the girls i like are the girls all the bad guys want....amber on the other hand seems to be my only light of hope..which is fading.. cos...i dont know whats going on..sighs...well i wish i knew what love was...sighs...well only wish she would have loved me too....

FIRST FEW MONTHS OF SCHOOL.

2007-03-24T07:39:00.001-07:00

ITS THE FIRST FEW MONTHS OF THE YEAR

Its been the first few months of the year ...i got back my first term results already.... i got a2 for dnt , b3 for combine science , a1 for both maths and combine hmanities ...and worse of all E8 for english ,WTF? i screwed up?! i wrote out of point lol :P my language got 10 over 15 but content 3 over 15 ....you do the maths... i also obtain a silver for basket ball shoot out..could have done better if it wasnt for the 2.4 in the morningwell its been a while scince i blogged :P really busy with school ... and all...i am actually sick today , but force myself to blog :D i got a high fever.... and all the crap...sighs.. ..well i gtg take a nap , take care ppl and god bless , bye bye!

busy lately

2007-02-10T14:34:00.000-08:00

SORRY PPL BEEN REALLY BUSY LATELY...

i am sure that all the 5NA students feel very old and like they have been left behind...well i do...all my friends are having fun after o levels while i am stressing about my DNT coursework...havent talk to my other friends for sometime ..havent gone out either ...so i wonder ,howa re your results guys?! not many ppl have told me their resutls yet,but i bet u guys did well rite?? just to lazy to tell me! lol..ok i gtg and do my DNT see yea around ppl!

LIFES LIKE THAT :P

2007-01-22T07:19:00.000-08:00

THIS YEAR SEEMS HARSH BUT WITH TEAR DROP..WE MUST MOVE ON..THINGS MAY LOOK FORWARD AND BETTER RIGHT?

Hmm year seems both equally hard and confusing .:P i have been so busy ....that i dont even have time to blog WTF? :P i hope i have improved in basket ball :P been hard practising it:P i envy all those ppl with no school at this point of time..feel like i stayed back a year..sighs...well at least i hope this year would teach me how to be more wise ...well also , i wish one day people wont be judge by the way they look or how they are (EG. emo,goth,neard .etc) cos we are all the same ..we may just look or dress differently .but its our charactor that should counnt .. i want to wake up one day where people dont laugh at you for being short or emo whatsoever...well that what i think :P ppl who cut their wrist... should really stop it :P it damages your body and you dont know it ..its aaddictive...

well finally i would like to show you guys my scholarship for last years acheivements ...collected it last saturday :P (just to prove to ppl i did come in the top few..incuding those who doubted me ...)

its a bit unclear but yea....this is it ..it came with a 500 dollar chaque ...and i collected it at bedok south sec:P well i have to go now :P see yea soon ppl and pls TAG!!

my new guitar and class

2007-01-11T22:47:00.000-08:00

NEW CLASS...NEW GUITAR...ONE MORE YEAR OF SCHOOL!

sighs ....i got one more year of school..as you guys. ... know i am in sec 5...got new classmates from the past year 4N2 nice ppl though ...the new teachers are cool...what a pity mister ho left our school well...at least we have him in our hearts...

well you people must have heard about my new guitar ...its sweet here are some pics of it.

well i got to go..got lots of dnt work to do ...see yea soon ppl!

after my n level results ,christmas and new year

2007-01-01T00:58:00.000-08:00

MY N LEVEL RESULTS ,MY CHRISTMAS AND NEW YEAR !

First of all , i would like to say i didnt try or study very hard for my N level...so my reuslts are not very pleasing to myself ..though i got 5 for L1R2 i still could have done way way better...well theres always next year ..my christmas ended up to become more of a family reunion since all i did was visit my relatives place...was kind of boring ...it was a lonesome christmas...felt damn lonely...sobbed by myself at east coast park....was really sad ....well...

However ,for new year, i went for davids BBQ it was fun and all cos i did the cooking :P anyway david pls promise me not to drink too much? :P anyway i am signing off i will write more about this ok?? busy now preparing for O levels so dear readers pls pardon me since i got a lot of work next year to do...i may also not to blog as often as before ok?

CHRISTMAS TREE IN PARKWAY 2006

me and gen on christmas eve (shes just a friend dont worry )

well see yea guys next time ,more pics to come :P

waiting for my results/

2006-12-17T09:03:00.000-08:00

THE NIGHT BEFORE THE RELEASE OF THE N LEVEL RESULTS!!

Hey ppl its about 12 hours more before recieving our results ,first i would love to start off by wishing everybody good luck with their exams and with what ever results you get ... work hard for the forth coming year!!!

now i am just anxious ,excited and scared....am i going crazy ???! i cant even sleep! lol anyway just here to wish everyone getting the results good luck and all the best ! will blog properly soon! bye!!

boredom and sad..

2006-12-10T23:26:00.000-08:00

SORRY I AM BORED...LET ME TALK MY SHIT...

A lot of things had happened during this holiday...i went to genting and only happen to try the achery quite fun..i will upload a picture of my result :P well i caught a flu too ...damn flu going round.....

i also worked at the sitex fair and met nice new friends :D it was fun ! too bad i didnt get the mp3 i was looking for ..oh well theres always next year....hmmm well holidays are ending soon...and um..oh yea,ppl with o level books , dont throw it away ,pass it to me , i need the headstart :p anyway i am signing off take care ppl and god bless!

birthday reviews

2006-11-28T07:05:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOSH!! THE PARTY REVIEW

The party was great all my relatives and some friends came...though i was slightly disappointed some friends couldnt make it....but yea it was fun i will upload the pics later , anyway i would like to thank ALVIN AND DAVID for conducting the party activites ....everything was nice ,well i wanted to thank everyone that came and enjoyed themselfs,it was a success!

the guy in the centre is me(in blue ) :P from left to right is jeremy , jeff ,jackson and wesley

ugly arnt i ?:p

the whole birthday crew ;) you guys rock !!!

my whole family and cousins

my family and me!!

well thats all folks ....

the life , overview

2006-11-20T00:20:00.000-08:00

WORKING EXPERIENCE IN SINGTEL and the overview of working life :P

well i have found new firends :) and met my old friend cruise

well friends like siew ling,ricky and YX short form for something :P
(PLS DONT FORGET ME :p)
singtel is a easy going job,stressful,with good pay and freebies :P like a free goodie bags lol

anyway i am here to give an overview of life and if u dont like it you can FUCK OFF!!!
cos i am just bored so let me type my shit can !?:P

anyway , life is like what ppl say, unfair...its full of mysterys ,unfold it...
remember the reason you are here is why you are here ,cos you have to fine out for yourself ;)well enough with my crapping ,here are some photos for your viewing pleasure :D

well this is a photo of Ilie,matilda and me !

Nadia and i ,she taught me almost everything i know in marks and spencer ,and i respect her for that :P

of course i will continue working hope i get a job at the upcoming road show in singtel :P anyway i am off to take a shower :P well working was fun,new firends rock ..i jsut hope they remember me ..its kind of sad if they dont but yea all the best and good luck ,peace out....-josh

the life!

2006-11-02T00:32:00.000-08:00

SORRY FOR NOT BEING ABLE TO BLOG FOR SOME TIME

WORKING LATELY SO I HAPPEN TO BE QUITE BUSY.....

so i would like to thank all thoes ppl who visited me :)
working could be quite boring sometimes....

lets see (working experience overview)

stupid supervisor....sucks.!!damn bitch and ugly ....(hope she is not reading this.,her name is wendy)
nice ppl are available too , judy and all the others
customers are annoying ppl(i want a plastic bag please,oh wait,want paper bag sorry sorry,oh actually never mind, i will jsut carry it)damn annoying !!fuck you! :P
the food in the staff room is nice :D

well i met a few nice friends and all,everything is as usual...missed basket ball ,the ppl i wished visited me didnt really come...but oh well at least i had some cool friends who did visit me :)

but yea,its an eye opener for me to study hard so ppl like wendy cant boss me around :)

study tips!

well....ppl have been bugging me for studying tips so here they are(pp llike david monkman :P)

rules :

firstly,work backwards.what do i mean by this ?? you have to have a target..and imagine achiving it ,then work backwards on how to obtain such targets.
believe in yourself (goes for basket ball too ),even when failure falls upon you,get back on your two feet and learn from it ,all men fail,only GREAT ones rise again ...
DO NOT GIVE EXCUSERS, impossible is nothing,dont care what ppl say about you,if they call you mad for studying for hours then tell them you know what you want :)THE LAST ONE WHO LAUGHS LAST LAUGH BEST ;)
THE LAST RULE IS , PAYING ATTENTION IN CLASS,it worked for me ...cos when i started to pay attention,i realised my results increased ,half the battle is won,you just need good notes and revise on those notes :)

HAPPY STUDYING :)

BTW i am preparing for o levels already :P see yea!! i am also off today :) yea!

thx for the surpport and no thx to those ppl who are blocking me....

2006-10-18T23:00:00.000-07:00

Hmmmm,thx ppl for the surpport,ppl like alvin,eugene,esther,thomas....thx ...and to those ppl who are blocking me ,why are you doing so???

list of ppl blocking me from msn (i know that you ppl are blocking me):

demi(demiong@hotmail.com) reason:i dont know why?

michelle (michelest27@hotmail.com) reason:unknown

Xiuling(angel_daphaz@hotmail.com)reason :unknown

janice yeo (xtc_street77@hotmail.com) reason:must be too good to talk to me...sighs...used to be close friends...

charlotte (charlotte_april@hotmail.com) reason:toobithcy.

and many many others

offend you ppl sighs...i love you ppl even if you guys hate me ...cos i dont hate anyone :) and thx to you ppl that surpport me when i fall,i will return you guys the favour....thx....and if i have offended anyone ...i would like to say i am sorry alright???i diddnt mean it ....sighs...

that damned day again.......

2006-10-17T00:54:00.000-07:00

well ppl u know me and my dad had been going at each other
,well it just happen today again at 12 39 am....i just cant take it....he wants me out of the house ASAP at 18, like he doesnt care.......damn it...like i got no future in POLY or the JC schools....i really wish he would get off my back...my whole family is against me...my dad..my bro...sighs....my mum wont bother anymore...all i have are you readers out there....i am shouting for help..anyway possible.... i just wanted to make my dad proud,thats why i started studying harder......but i got this comment

:normal academic only top , but for express??....must always compare with ppl highier pupils....

I got a question for you dad...if you are so smart , why arent you able to uphold our style of living...and why are you stuck in a shitty job??? cant force me to reach for what you yourself cant rreach right?..............

at this point i am tearing and damn pissed ... i tried....i could relate to the song perfect by simple plan.... its the song bellow ...................

i got scolded today again why???i used the computer.......all i wanted to do was play some games...i am totally on a holiday...and i am working ...the only time i have is at night but my dad took it all away from me......damn it...one day...... just wait damn it ...when i am doing better off than you i will see whos useless..(btw he called me that) or shit for brains(called me that too) sighs i dont have any friends .......worse still...i dont have real parents....what am i to do/??? i am working to cover my own spenditure........anyone ...any advise left.???did i grow up according to plan??? dad do you think i am wasting my time playing guitar and basket ball??(things he disapproves)it hurts ...i try hard to make it...but i didnt even get one word of encouragement..................dad you know you use to be my hero but now it seems that you dont care anymore...calling blogging talking cock......i am sorry dad i cant be perfect...i really tried .........we cant go back...i will never forgive you dad ......nothing going to change the things you said......

simple plan :perfect

i feel like that dad...if you ever cared...

one day.. i will be gone and you will be sorry....i wont let you off.... i try till i cant...i dont know what am i to do...i am never good enough for you....

i try not to think of the pain i stil feel inside.....why dont you care..... i am at wits end already...cos NOTHING ALRIGHT....i hate you......i hate you....nothings gona change all that you have said ................dad , you will never understand..........it my holiday...and i cant relax one bit???? i am crying inside and you would never know, or care to find out....... sorry i cant be what you want......and focing me wont help either ...i am worthless...not up to your expected level...i disappointed you.....i am sorry i tried ..i really did.....god bless me.....cos god ,you are my only father now........jsut so you know that ....i took what i hated and made it a part of me...and thats you dad.......cant t blame me like father like son rite.....i am still tearing at this point ...holding it in....sorry i really cant take it ...i got to sign off ppl...god bless....

the music video of the week !!!!

2006-10-14T23:52:00.000-07:00

THIS IS THE MUSIC VIDEO OF THE WEEK,
ITS BY MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE ,TITLE IS WELCOME TO THE BLACK PARADE!!
GIVE IT UP FOR M.C.R !

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CAN SOME ONE TEACH ME HOW TO PLAY THE SOLO FOR THIS SONG ,COS THE TABS ARE WRONG...ONLY THE INTRO IS RITE,TEACH ME PLS??:p ANYWAY ROCK ON!

what are friends for......sighs..

2006-10-13T21:29:00.000-07:00

It started with a rush in the morning,call for work...with eugene.....however..the job was for one person so...(BTW i got him the job)of course i said no because we wanted to work together.....but to my surpirse,eugene said yes..so now i am without a job...sigh.s..when i though friends where for real.....later i recieved another call saying there are jobs for 2 ppl..i immidately called him and ask to join so we can work together....to my horror ..He said:i asked girl working here also...then near my house,long term somemoreETC. so now i feel so destroyed with the fact that he left me out.....sighs...what are friends for! fuck man..i should have ask someone else in the first place ...but what can i say rite?.....sighs now i am here waiting for a call with a job....eugene...i want u to know..that i feel betrayed...sighs..we just had to wait a few minutes more before we could get another job together..now you blew it away ........well lucky for me,wesley decided to join me so i wont feel so left out ..thx dude.and to david and all :)sighs...eugene..i will NEVER FORGIVE YOU....have anyone felt like this ??before???sighs...i have .....now i got to work alone on anyother jobs..well if chun kee or anyone is interested pls contact me ,my email address is in the profile section :D:Dyup..girls are needed badly at the moment ..so do email me!well let me give you ppl advice , always wait for good jobs :D i did and now i got a better job than eugene ....sighs...i thought we were friends....anyway i want you all to know that my true friends rock !!! they know who they are :) BTW the may get a free treat :D:D but only when i get my pay check :DD SIGHS...what an unlucky day....damn friday the thirteen.....:P

Here is something for all my great friends out there!! rock on!!(click for clearer picture) :

i suck at drawing and at this stuff sorrry ,i tried:P *when i was down you guys where there for me....when in darkness,you guys gave me light...for that i would like to thank you guys and say that you all rock* the N for the in could not appear sorry for the error:P

my first love.....

2006-10-11T16:25:00.000-07:00

my first love was the best.....sandy....i really do miss you...she wouldnt believe me......sighs....treasure your love ones if not they become sandy.....,dear if you are reading this , i want you to know that i still love you and will be waiting....ppl say i am mad ..sighs.... this is for you....and also i love my friends like Eugene,ansel,Ryan,Pauline ng,Pauline lim , esther (BTW thx for helping with the blog:D),alvin (my basket ball coach,if not for him, i wont be this good :) )heydi lee and her little sister(shrimp) real name
dewaine.um many many other ppl too ,sorry if i didnt mention you :P but yea thx for being my friends :) oh yea chun kee too :D sorry lol see yea guys !!

SANDY KHOO,THIS IS FOR YOU :

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Need new houses??selling???buying?and more...

2006-10-11T00:53:00.000-07:00

Need new houses??selling???buying? look ME up ,especially when you want a place in the east...cos my dads a property agent ,needs some business you know ?? just tag on my board and i will get back to you :)BTW, you can also look me up for newest and nicest music videos of the week :D

heres the pick of the week music video just for you ppl ;)

ENJOY !!!!

the begining

2006-10-10T09:14:00.000-07:00

its been quite sad for me being alone now and all ....god bless i surppose??? well what are you ppl up too???? i will start serious blogging soon :)