well ppl u know me and my dad had been going at each other
,well it just happen today again at 12 39 am....i just cant take it....he wants me out of the house ASAP at 18, like he doesnt care.......damn it...like i got no future in POLY or the JC schools....i really wish he would get off my back...my whole family is against me...my dad..my bro...sighs....my mum wont bother anymore...all i have are you readers out there....i am shouting for help..anyway possible.... i just wanted to make my dad proud,thats why i started studying harder......but i got this comment

:normal academic only top , but for express??....must always compare with ppl highier pupils....


I got a question for you dad...if you are so smart , why arent you able to uphold our style of living...and why are you stuck in a shitty job??? cant force me to reach for what you yourself cant rreach right?..............

at this point i am tearing and damn pissed ... i tried....i could relate to the song perfect by simple plan.... its the song bellow ...................

i got scolded today again why???i used the computer.......all i wanted to do was play some games...i am totally on a holiday...and i am working ...the only time i have is at night but my dad took it all away from me......damn it...one day...... just wait damn it ...when i am doing better off than you i will see whos useless..(btw he called me that) or shit for brains(called me that too) sighs i dont have any friends .......worse still...i dont have real parents....what am i to do/??? i am working to cover my own spenditure........anyone ...any advise left.???did i grow up according to plan??? dad do you think i am wasting my time playing guitar and basket ball??(things he disapproves)it hurts ...i try hard to make it...but i didnt even get one word of encouragement..................dad you know you use to be my hero but now it seems that you dont care anymore...calling blogging talking cock......i am sorry dad i cant be perfect...i really tried .........we cant go back...i will never forgive you dad ......nothing going to change the things you said......



simple plan :perfect

i feel like that dad...if you ever cared...

one day.. i will be gone and you will be sorry....i wont let you off.... i try till i cant...i dont know what am i to do...i am never good enough for you....

i try not to think of the pain i stil feel inside.....why dont you care..... i am at wits end already...cos NOTHING ALRIGHT....i hate you......i hate you....nothings gona change all that you have said ................dad , you will never understand..........it my holiday...and i cant relax one bit???? i am crying inside and you would never know, or care to find out....... sorry i cant be what you want......and focing me wont help either ...i am worthless...not up to your expected level...i disappointed you.....i am sorry i tried ..i really did.....god bless me.....cos god ,you are my only father now........jsut so you know that ....i took what i hated and made it a part of me...and thats you dad.......cant t blame me like father like son rite.....i am still tearing at this point ...holding it in....sorry i really cant take it ...i got to sign off ppl...god bless....