LAZY LATELY..



I been so lazy lately...cant focus on my work..keep going to on my laptop and slack.....i cant even sleep cos my dad dont let me use the air con in the afternoon..and i got no fan....so i am like sweating while i sleep.. so irritating... well o levels are coming soon..... 27 /4/07 is mid year...well on friday./20/4/07 , we had sports carnival...then eugene and all went to george birthday...he is such a bastard as his god bro ,he didnt even invite me..when i invited him last year...he said there wasnt any space and all...then he invited santa maria of all ppl...fuck....i got no faithful friends (in school) i just realised that in am alone (as really alone with no friends nor family members ) 95 percent of the time..... i only meet my friends at the basket ball court...other then that..i am usually alone...i got no true friends to whom i can share my secrets and stuff with ..maybe a few..but they seem so busy that i dont want to bother them..in school i have no one to talk to about this stuff...eugene is of no help..sighs...god.....my dad has been giving me a hard time still ...everyday..like he has something against me or what...he keep making me feel unwanted at home..he says the most hurtful things and dont care....he wants me out of the house asap he dont want me home..everytime he sees my face he scolds me...i mean ..where can i go to relax...not even can i relax in my own house..not in school...hardly anywhere..i feel so depressed and stressed...and i keep it all in ...cos my parents dont give a damn to bother or to care...i just wished i died..the only way i think i can let out is ..through blogging..but i am so busy lately.i dont have time..well i gtg ....sighs...