THE DOWNSIDE OF LIFE....



I thought this year would stuff off right...with new friends ...a great gf...good school and stuff....



but ..on 27 march .. one day before our 2nd month...2 days before her bday ...she dumped me ..just because she thinks it wont work..i still love you cindy.. .. i wasnt sad that you was an absentee gf...but sad ..because ..you never think of me ..or miss me..or whatsoever..and it feels likes its one sided though we are together..


now that i seen your blog recently with the pics of collin and yourself..i feel even more upset..cos ..you never posted pics of us at all....i just wish you treated me dearer...the gift i got you ...was what i saved up for so hard..you never thought about how i would feel .....


and worse i cant move on..its too difficult for me to move on so fast..like how you moved on so fast..whiched makes me even more sad... inside ..you have no idea.....


NP is a great school ..great friends ..great people..but ..cindy is always in my mind..i cant seem to mix around the way i did in MI ..i didnt even ask people for phone numbers..(other than my group ) ....


cindy ...my lifes a wreck without you ...
i miss walking to school in the morning with you ...

i miss watching sunsets with you ...
i miss just seeing your smile or recieving your hugs ...


my heart calls out for one name ..and that name is cindy...
i cant eat properly...lost 2 kg.... cant do anything right...


you wont even treat me like a friend now ...i feel so empty inside.....

i cry myself to sleep every night..otherwise i cant sleep....

i started slight drinking habits...the only way to ease the pain is to drink before i drown...

i tear everytime i think of you ..and me ..and how we used to be....

cindy ..wont you come back with me ?? sighs...god bless you ..whereever you are...